Skinny 230713

The summer holidays are finally here! 

No more school runs, washing uniforms or making packed lunches. Bring on the BBQs, play dates, days out…

…and CALORIES. (And bickering, but that's another blog post.)

The summer holidays, for me, are treacherous waters to be carefully negotiated.

Up until this point, I've been grateful for a 1 lb-a-week weight loss, repeating the mantra to myself that this health-kick is a marathon, not a sprint. As our Slimming World group leader keeps reminding us: 1 lb a week is 4 stone a year. It's calorie-free food for thought!

However, as a fan of a sociable sundowner or two, I have to be realistic. And particularly as I don't work normal office hours (I can be socialising on a Monday afternoon just as easily as I could be hunched over my desk on a Friday night), the added chaos of the summer holidays can, and will, throw me completely off track.

So, I've decided I'm going to set myself a different challenge over the next six weeks.

I aim to maintain my weight over the summer holidays. Yes, that's right. I'm just going to try NOT to gain any weight.

A bit lily-livered, perhaps. But, I'm a realist and painfully aware of my danger zones (this is shown in red to denote the very real DANGER). These are the points at which I'm doomed to fall from the weight-loss wagon and begin immediate and merciless self-sabotage, usually gaining not only the weight I've lost, but plenty more besides.

DANGER ZONES

  • I set myself unmanageable targets and punish myself when not attained. The punishments are not pretty. And usually result in a spare-tyre. Or a *SPARE* spare-tyre.
  • I want results too quickly. I undo any positive work if I feel that the results aren't good enough or fast enough. (See spare-tyre note above.)
  • Subconsciously, I adopt an all or nothing philosophy. This is a lifelong theme for me and one that, aged 38, I am still battling. If I'm not being 100% good, then I may as well be awful. But it goes beyond awful. I do as much harm to myself as possible. Self-hatred can be a VERY powerful thing.

I am DETERMINED this isn't going to happen over the summer, so I'm telling myself that I will NOT get disappointed if I remain at the same weight over the next six weeks.

That said, I'm not going to stop trying. I am going to increase my exercise regime, so that any extra calories (think vodka, BBQ food etc) have a cat-in-hell's chance of being zapped from my system before attaching themselves to my thighs in the form of more wobbling.

So IF I lose any weight, it will be an incredible bonus!

Today I managed 90 minutes of sweating in my local gym (30 minutes bike ride, 40 minutes brisk walk, 20 minutes gentle jogging). That's a couple of vodkas, right?

I didn't get to weigh-in at Slimming World today. I'm going on Thursday morning, instead. I THINK I'm "plateauing" at the moment, but I'm sincerely hoping for a 2 lb loss on Thursday morning to mark my first stone during this stint of dieting. Perhaps if I can increase my exercise I can manage it? It would be lovely to reach my first stone and, at the very least, keep this under my belt until the kids go back to school.

Wish me luck!

"No-one needs extra chins LESS than I do." – Jane Prinsep, at some point or other.

4 thoughts on “Skinny 230713

  1. Nice one Prinsep. I imagine the problem with weightless is the bingeing that comes with failure. “I’ve put on a lb, so I might as well put on 4”. So planning to maintain is much better. If you can go into the sumer at 13st 5lbs and plan to come out at 13st 5lbs, that’s a good target.

    Best of luck. xx

    1. Absolutely right. There are at least two mindsets to weight loss, I think. There is the “just stop putting the food into your gob and stay out of the fridge mentality”. Which is valid, actually. But in my experience, for people who genuinely battle with their weight and constantly yo-yo diet, it’s just not that simple. I’m not making excuses for why I’ve carried an extra few stone around for years. I’ve done it to myself and I’m the only one who can change it. But I think recognising your own patterns is key. Then the “stay out of the fridge” stuff begins to come naturally.

      Thanks, as ever, for your support xx

  2. Oh I like! You can do this. You’re one of the most determined people I know (and slipping off the wagon into a cool glass of something spiritual sometimes doesn’t mean you’re not).

    For me, taking the big picture perspective definitely helps… Weeks and months not hours and days. Having had a lousy relationship with food in the past (not saying that’s you by the way!) I focus on nutrition now. What’s this food giving to my body – and sometimes happiness is the right answer! Another idea that worked for a friend of mine was to reframe the idea of ‘weight loss’ to a process of ‘letting go’ of something he no longer needed – and that wasn’t just in terms of weight, but in life generally cos it’s all linked after all. Letting go is gentler somehow. Loss can be painful…

    I have pom poms… I will shake them for you xxx

    1. You’ve hit the nail on the head. As you know, I went through a big life-changing thing lately. I got married. Like the realist I am, I viewed it as a “day to get through”. Obviously, I wanted it to be lovely, but I was aware of possible pitfalls that can often occur when you put some many eggs into one basket: the possible family rows, the lecherous drunk who offends everyone, red wine getting spilled on my sofa etc. And then the WEIRDEST thing happened: we just had this PERFECT day. One full of love and meaning – even the vows were incredible – with George and I looking at eachother trying our hardest not to cry. All of our friends and family were with us (no mean feat to achieve) and, as you know because you were there, it all went rather well indeed.

      But like everything else in life, I don’t do things normally. I didn’t “slim down” for my wedding, in fact, I think I fattened up. I actually don’t care – I look at the photos now and can see how utterly buzzing with happiness I am. That means more to me than the size of my hips.

      BUT… having a perfect day, particularly when perfect stuff doesn’t usually happen to me, lead me to think about what else was possible. What else in my life would I really change, if I could? I’ve got the man that I want, the friends I couldn’t put a price on and a settled home for my kids. What else is there?

      Money is tough, isn’t it for everyone? But I’m working hard to right that.

      The ONLY other thing that I could identify that I knew made me sad on a regular basis was my self-image. My weight, basically.

      And so began the process of realising that I didn’t NEED my weight anymore. Just didn’t need it. It serves me no longer. And that the punishing things I do to myself, the habits that result in weight gain, are no longer necessary either. Every time I feel that I may slip up, I remember my wedding day and think that if others can show me love and kindness and basically think I’m an OK person, then I can show this┬ákindness to myself too.

      It’s hard to change that pattern for the long term, but I’m determined that this is the time when I finally achieve it.

      xx

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